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How I Enjoy Life As A Depressed Person
Do you know what’s the most tragic thing in the world?
To wait for everything to get back to as you wanted so you can wake up with a smile on your face and a desire to enjoy life. To not let yourself enjoy the good things you have in the moment because there are still unfulfilled desires keeping you awake at night. To deprive yourself of living because you don’t have all the boxes checked that you think you need in order to enjoy life.
I did that. So I know how pathetic it feels.
I was going through a tough period of my time for the past couple of months. I don’t know how it started or when it started but I know it made me someone I hated.
It’s a tricky thing how you know ‘exactly what you have been doing wrong yet not taking any action to change your behavior.’
I am a person whose purpose in life is to just LIVE and ENJOY life as it comes instead of waiting for everything to come together. But life breaks everyone. Even the best of us end up falling for the mental escapes our mind creates to avoid the present problems.
Perhaps, I did the same. To avoid one problem, I started skipping life. I leaned on short-term pleasures. I knew what I was doing to myself. But I didn’t stop.
