I am Losing Myself & You Are Trapped In The Same Vicious Cycle Too; Here Is What I Am Doing

I am losing myself, my personality, my thinking process, my original essence, and above all my dreams. Everything is slowly slipping away from my hands without my conscious realization or permission.

Now, you must think I have some kind of mental illness, right?

Well, partially you are correct.

For the past few months, I have been using social media a LOT, especially YouTube. Although I follow some great people, I somehow feel I am going down.

Okay, let me simplify it.

I was thinking of starting my YouTube channel for the past 8 months and it was on 30 August 2022 when I finally posted a video but here is a reality check. I was editing another video today when I felt that I was missing from the video. No, I don’t mean like a ghost. I mean the ME factor was missing from my video.

I was trying to be like a girl I follow on YouTube. I was trying to copy her speaking style so that I can also get more views and attention like her. And all of this happened without my permission or conscious decision. I COPIED HER UNCONSCIOUSLY.

A few days back, I was scrolling Instagram when I came across a girl’s profile who had shared how she gained 200k…