I Choose the Luxury of Silence Over Becoming Other’s Entertainer

I always struggled with getting other’s attention be it in school or college or in the corporate world.

Though now I wonder, why did I want their attention in the first place?

A luxury like this

There are some people like me who have always lived as a part of the crowd, someone who is there but not visible enough, someone who is lost but wants to be found.

And if you are that someone, hello long-time bestie.

Coming back to my point, I was never good at being the center of attraction and why would I be?

I wasn’t the prettiest or smartest or most intelligent person in the room. Nor was I an interesting person who knew how to make you laugh or amuse you with my words. So, I was always a part of the crowd — never a main character who people would listen to.

I guess for the same reason, I never had any best friends in school or college. However, what I do know is that I TRIED.

I tried to laugh at jokes that I didn’t even understand. I tried to say things I didn’t believe in so that I can sound cool or at least acceptable. I tried to listen to songs that I didn’t find soothing so that I can sing along with them. I tried to behave so I don’t stand out but rather look exactly like them.