I Want to Live My Life in Silence; But Why Should It Matter to You?

Renuka Gavrani
7 min readMar 16, 2023

Lately, I have been losing interest in almost everything. I used to love traveling or at least I liked the thought of me traveling across the world, meeting new people, and having fun. But I guess something went wrong.

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Earlier, when I used to scroll through Pinterest and find beautiful places tucked somewhere on the other side of the world, I used to feel a sudden tickle in my stomach. As if my heart will explode with extra beats or something inside my stomach is dancing. A mix of nervousness and excitement. However, now I don’t feel the same excitement.

I just think that these places and all the pretty stuff just exist. And I don’t feel the slightest bit of interest. And trust me, it’s not like I have had some bad experiences in life. My life is completely fine. I am rather happy. And no, I didn’t have a breakup. My career is on the right track too. So, what went wrong? Well, after a careful analysis of my life, observing my behavior, and looking at myself as a different person, I just realized that I haven’t lost interest in things. I just lost interest in the visuals of the life presented to me.

Allow me to explain,

In this era, you and I are always open to other’s lifestyles. How others are having fun and living their best lives. For example; Influencers on social media wouldn’t stop talking about ‘that trip to Italy’ that everyone seems to enjoy. Everywhere you look, you will see the glorious lifestyle of others which was/is a part of your dream lifestyle. Every influencer on social media is taking trips and posting pictures like they own the world.

And where does it leaves you and me? If not about you, I can claim about me. I used to feel overwhelmed with all these cute-pretty pictures of how everyone was having fun while I was sitting in my room wishing for life to happen to me. It’s almost like I am the only one left behind or I am the only one who doesn’t fit in this glamorous industry.

However, I have come to realize that this lavish life of others is the exact reason why I lost interest in things that used to excite me once.

Perhaps, it’s the overflow of cute-pretty pictures of every other person on Instagram or how the ‘influencers’ make…



Renuka Gavrani

Ghostwriter, open for projects. I talk about slow & Intentional living - taking you closer to your dream life. I wrote a book too, here: https://a.co/d/531JIFq