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The Pain of Hiding Your True Self
The most painful and scariest thing in the world is to look in the mirror and not recognize the person staring right at you.
And then no matter how many friends you have or how many people think you are amazing, you wouldn’t find peace anywhere.
It happened to me. I am doing pretty well on social media. With over 100k followers on Instagram, I keep getting messages where people share ‘how my content is inspiring them’
However, a year back, my soul was lost and buried inside me while I was high on ‘what people think of me or how likable I am’
I have spent the majority of my life trying to be nice to people so that I can be an ideal version of a daughter, sister, friend, or whatever. I said ‘Yes’ to outings when I wanted to stay at home and read books. I kept talking and smiling when I wanted to say that I am tired or I have got some work to do so I will catch up later. I even dressed up when I wanted to go casual. All of it so that I could be what people wanted me to be.
However, what I didn’t realize at that point is that ‘I may have become an ideal version for others but what about myself?’
What do I think of myself? What are my opinions about myself? What do I like and what do I don’t? Why don’t I like makeup yet I find myself applying lipstick? What are my…
