Why I am Quiet & How It Is Improving My Life

As a child, I can remember I was always ignored as if I didn’t exist because I was QUIET and I wouldn’t answer in words but with a confusing smile.

However, as I grew up, and joined college, I decided that no matter what happens, I am going to make cool friends and be cool like them, talk with strangers like a long-time bestie, and have fun.

Did that happen?

Well, honestly NO!

Even in college, when I tried hard and pushed myself to go beyond my limits, I was not able to be as talkative as people are supposed to be.

As a result, I was often judged and misunderstood by people. Some called me rude, some thought I was uninteresting to even have a conversation with and some just forced me to talk like ‘Renuka, are you okay, why don’t you speak, and the more comments like this.

But enough was enough!

I asked myself, do I really hate myself so much that I want to change myself into someone else?

And the answer didn’t come in a blink of an eye! Common, it’s my life’s story, not some American teenage drama.

But to cut the long story short, I came to realize that even with my friends, I feel alone or like an outsider so why don’t I just be me and have fun all by myself?